>"To Ashes"

>*A late afternoon* 

What was she doing standing 3 inches at curve of the street and looking at cars as they drove passed her? She stood in cloths soaking wet, shivering. You can see her teeth chattering and her eyes crying, but yet a smile laid painted on her face…… I glanced over at her and maybe recognize her, but couldn’t… 

The setting was beautiful. an orange, yellow, and red sun was setting, the serene outside, with a steady breeze. But her..?… 

Her scream ripped the scenery and filled the air, and drew a flock of birds flying away, like humans fleeing from a disaster… Did these birds understand and I yet was trying to figure out?

People began to gather and I grew aware something was wrong… I moved in toward the crowd… She took no notice in anyone that stood near her, but kept her face where no one can see it- hidden under the hooded jacket she wore… she didn’t want anyone near her. My face kept a confused yet sad look… She stood motionly peaceful among these people, like nothing was going wrong. 

Whispers of people moved aimlessly through the crowd. No one seemed to notice me, I moved around the growing crowd. Feeling like a lifeless spirit crouching in and around these people. Whispers went to speaking, then just got louder.

She dropped down on her knees and put her hands over her ears. The crowd got quieter.

She reached into her pocket and took out a folded paper which she stared at then set aside.

As she turned around and her jaded eyes looked right into mine… It was like looking at a reflection in a mirror… She looked like me, and cried like me… I felt the pain she felt, and could see right through her. I then was aware… it WAS me, and my spirit drifting along this world before I had left…………

I took a last glance at what I was leaving behind…but nothing seemed meaningful anymore… In the crowd, confused faces stared, waiting on what I’d do next. Watching as entertainment filled them with joy. I knew I was melting inside, but still smiled… Then caught my attention, a man moving in aside him another man, through the crowd… I knew this guy… As I lifted my head slowly and looked right at him, he slowly hid behind the others. I looked away, and told myself I’ve forgotten that face, and was meant to leave it like that…. I looked down, slowly dropping on the floor. Took a deep breath. I soaked in gasoline and shivered in the cooling breeze. Reached into my pocket- It felt like all of life’s walls were caving in on me… I have lost…- smiled…and lit myself to flames……….

The folded paper, read…

“Watch my ashes fly away… I’ve made things easier for you when I die.”

**I keep holding on to you, but I can’t bring you back to life… Sing the anthem of the angels, and say the last good-bye**

*It’s all an act. Smile. Live. Die inside. Go to bed. And again the next day.*

>Actually, What do men want? o_O

>Off late, I am not coming on the Blogging scene but this topic made me want to write about it!!

This post in a part of the contest by Blogadda.

Everybody want to know each other, be it Men or Women!! Everybody cares about the life around us, the people we care and share, the people we want to please and impress, the people we want to hate and regret, the people we love and live for!! Sometimes, if we realised we do want others to talk about what we do and what we don’t do. After all, we are a social being and we do depend on everything around us. No one can deny it.

Coming the topic of what men want, WHAT DO YOU GUYS WANT??

We can only approach this topic in a very generalised view, because each person is unique and has her/his own wants and needs.

The first thing that struck me when I read this topic. Men want WOMEN.

Let me explain,
A Women is required to carry a child(Male or female).

A Mother is need take care of the need, to nurture and cultivate values through her love and affection. The Mother plays the most crucial part in the life a child. Men are said to be connected to the mother more than a women. After all, she is the first women in his life. He would anything to get her love. Come who may say, men love their mother more than another women in his life.

A Sister is to teach him to care, share and teach him good from wrong. A sibling is also the first rivalry. The one who act as competition. This is where he faces his first victory or defeat. Embraces each emotion with a sister. As he grows up, the love for sister also grows. He takes care of her, respect her, treat her like equals.
This is a very strong and powerful relationship for his lifetime.

A Girlfriend, to share his secrets, likes, dislikes, passion, compassion, confessions. I know a guys best buddy is a guy too. But a girlfriend accept him as he is. They help each other grow and share their responsibilities and dreams.

A Wife to open up a new world of love. The one which he never imagined that would exist. The Wife play another major part in this life after his mother. To make him feel happy, to make feel loved, to make him feel like a man itself. She remains for the rest of his life as a partner, soul mate, lover, friend & an enemy at times. Sex, a whole chapter in the life of a man is experienced with his wife. All say men are crazy about sex. Yeah it is true but it is also a part of the life which everyone accepts. Sex is not a taboo. The role of his wife is indefinable in the real world. What she does for the MAN in her life and the family cannot be compared to anything. Yeah, All for him. The Man in her life. The true value of his life only begins after his marriage.

A Daughter to make him a father. There is no denial that a father- daughter relationship is one of the strongest. Men are more protective and sensitive when it comes to having a daughter. Most of the times, Men embraces a daughter. Another women to complete him.

A Granddaughter to trouble him, to make him tell stories of his life. To hold his hands when she sleep. Another women who fulfils his whole life.

So many relationship, of course men want men too..But what they want most is the relationship which they crave for from the beginning of his life till the end is Women. I feel all other materialistic things comes only after this. Money, status etc, etc, are all the things which he wants to get only after his true fulfilment- Women are attained.

I dedicate this post about Men to all the Men in my life: My father, My brothers, My friends, My future- husband and May be My future son 😛

On a funny note:


Can you imagine a world without men?  No crime and lots of happy fat women – Marion Smith and Nicole Hollander

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>Two Years and Still going strong..

>Second Blogoversary and My 25th year on Earth!!

                      And

I created this blog on the eve of my birthday.. I still remember completing my first post and I received my first wish call from my Friend/Classmate Murugesh. The blog has been my friend, companion, lover,guide and everything I loved sometimes..

Pouring my heart out, my anger, my love, my happiness, my sorrow, my perception, my life. It was always about me. My space with which I lived. I made lots of new friends, old friends became closer who dint even know I could write, Some friends left. Some came back.. This blog has seen many of those.. Unspoken words, silent whispers, murmurs.. everything. I stopped by every time to see what the world around me thinks. I grew up and still have a lot more growing to do. I wish and tell my blog that always be with me no matter who leaves or stay.

People don’t know you, for what good you have done, but for what mistake that happens in the past. All I can say is that I have moved on.. I don’t take what you think or not think about me. After all, nobody is perfect.

Life around me says I am selfish… then I ask again, who isn’t it?? Being here and Living at the moment is what  I do. Doing this or that, good or bad, whatever… I am doing it with all my heart and I dont regret my past!! Accept all mistakes and learn from it. Let me be me. So Life is beautiful as I see it.