>Two Years and Still going strong..

>Second Blogoversary and My 25th year on Earth!!


I created this blog on the eve of my birthday.. I still remember completing my first post and I received my first wish call from my Friend/Classmate Murugesh. The blog has been my friend, companion, lover,guide and everything I loved sometimes..

Pouring my heart out, my anger, my love, my happiness, my sorrow, my perception, my life. It was always about me. My space with which I lived. I made lots of new friends, old friends became closer who dint even know I could write, Some friends left. Some came back.. This blog has seen many of those.. Unspoken words, silent whispers, murmurs.. everything. I stopped by every time to see what the world around me thinks. I grew up and still have a lot more growing to do. I wish and tell my blog that always be with me no matter who leaves or stay.

People don’t know you, for what good you have done, but for what mistake that happens in the past. All I can say is that I have moved on.. I don’t take what you think or not think about me. After all, nobody is perfect.

Life around me says I am selfish… then I ask again, who isn’t it?? Being here and Living at the moment is what  I do. Doing this or that, good or bad, whatever… I am doing it with all my heart and I dont regret my past!! Accept all mistakes and learn from it. Let me be me. So Life is beautiful as I see it.


>Desire – Deserve

>Most of us might have come across people disinterested about their life, regretting about the past, complaining about the present, and thinking deep about future without a clear conscience. Who knows what tomorrow is?????? Few of us might have stood wonder struck for what has made their life so dis-interesting and miserable. 

Such thoughts might be crossing over our minds from a very long time and probably we have all successfully failed to answer that question. We have to understand that, not all questions come with a straight-forward answer and this is one such. 

Well the question is pretty simple, “Do we desire for what we deserve or does the desire deserve all our pain and efforts?”

We long for something or someone, their love, care and affection. Sometimes we get what we want and most of the times we are unsuccessful. We must have observed two young people who are in love, at the beginning whispering with full concentration and a complete eye-contact but after a while the spark fades off, whispering turns into yelling, no eye contact, concentration diverts and leaves both of them with discomfort, thoughts of quitting crosses over the mind, dilemma and loneliness. They break-up not with each other but also with all other relationships. Should it supposed to be this way or is it us who have fashioned it to our convenience? 

If a single relationship ends is there a need to cut off from all other relationships too? Shouldn’t we all pause and think for a minute that there is something else that exists beyond all this? Do we even make an effort to think that there are many things and people you care about and vice versa? 

Nine out of ten times the answer would be a simple two-letter word “No”. We let our emotions control our thoughts and we become paralyzed tending to forget everything, regretting about the past and complaining about the present.

Life always takes different diversions and quitting is not the solution. At such times, we should relax and let go off all the negative thoughts, emotions, start thinking with a clear conscience. Well, we know; “It is easier said than done”, but there is nothing impossible.

Desire is a boon and a bane at the same time. There is a saying, “Desire is the root of all miseries” and another saying which contradicts the former” Desire is the key to motivation”. Sounds strange, but it is true….. Strange, because it is contradicting, true, you need to desire to aim high and reach your goal. On the contemporary we have to answer the above mentioned questions before assigning the task to our brain and heart.

Had Adam and Eve not desired to eat the apple from “Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil” probably we did not have to fight so hard for our existence. Not just in the story, in reality we have many such serpents which insist us to an extent of losing control on our thoughts, blind-folding them just a little caution can prevent the damage.

Desire can always take us high if used properly else it would have the adverse effect on our life. It makes you abandon not only self but also influences the entire environment changing the atmosphere where you are. It leaves us in a state of confusion and makes us indecisive.

“Dreams to touch the sky are made at ground level” is one of the finest quotes I have come across, but, “Can we touch the sky????? Is it possible????? Imagination has no boundaries and this phrase must have taken birth to satisfy the “desire” of an author but there should always be a constant effort to get what we desire; on the contemporary we should be a little aware of the reality. We all know the famous proverb, “Man proposes god disposes. Few things are not uncontrollable and an effort done to hold it back will only cause more mishap to one’s life.

Human-being is a knot of several relationships. He/she would be delegated with different roles and responsibilities. End of one Relationship means not an end to all others and yourself.

“Life on earth might be expensive but we should never forget the part of getting a free trip around the sun, enjoy the jolly ride to your fullest”.

>Priceless – 55 fiction

>She was at the peak of ecstasy. She couldn’t believe that doing it would give her so much of pleasure. Finally she was done completely with it.

“Dad, Can I have one more Ice Cream, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee”.
The look on the face of his five year old daughter enjoying her ice cream. Priceless.

 I miss Ice Cream and Chocolates. I miss my dad too.

>Waiting for a Prince


Sitting all alone in her room,
Waiting for her prince to come through.
Left only with her agony,
She wonders to herself why me.
She’s read all the stories of true love,
And looks to the stars up above.
Hoping to see a sign,
Wondering when it will be her time.
Will her prince ever come,
Or will she be left alone in the sun.
Maybe it’s not made for her,
She’s always left unsure.
She thinks about the day her prince will arrive,
Without his love she feels deprived.
Love comes to all but she,
Soon she wonders if it will ever be.
A prince is all she needs to be fine,
Instead of just trying to survive.
Happily ever after is what she needs,
With it she will be freed.

>FAQ – India


I loved this forwarded mail.. I had a good laugh when I was so tensed up with my work here. So I wanted to share the joy and laughter with you… Go on and read the whole thing.

 India holds a certain sense of mystery for the world outside its borders. Read on to find how curious foreigners are about India and its ways or rather read on to find out how dumb and ignorant they are about our beautiful country. This was taken from a tourism blog where people could post queries if they were planning on making a trip to India.

The answers are the actual responses by the website officials, who demonstrate tolerance and excellent sense of humor.

Q : Does it ever get windy in India? I have never seen it rain on TV, how do the plants grow? (UK).
A: We import all plants fully grown and then just sit around watching them die.

Q : Will I be able to see elephants in the street? (USA)
A: Depends how much you’ve been drinking.

Q: I want to walk from Delhi to Goa – can I follow the railroad tracks? (Sweden)
A: Sure, it’s only three thousand kms, take lots of water.

Q: Is it safe to run around in the bushes in India? (Sweden)
A: So it’s true what they say about Swedes.

Q: Are there any ATMs India? Can you send me a list of them in Delhi, Chennai, Calcutta and Bangalore?(UK)
A: What did your last slave die of?

Q: Can you give me some information about hippo racing in India? (USA)
A: A-fri-ca is the big triangle shaped continent south of Europe. In-di-a is that big triangle in the middle of the Pacific & Indian Ocean which does not.. oh forget it. …… Sure, the hippo racing is every Tuesday night in Goa. Come naked. 

Q: Which direction is North in India? (USA)
A: Face south and then turn 180 degrees. Contact us when you get here and we’ll send the rest of the directions.

Q: Can I bring cutlery into India? (UK)
A: Why? Just use your fingers like we do.

Q: Can you send me the Indiana Pacers matches’ schedule? (France)
A: Indiana is a state in the Unites States of…oh forget it. Sure, the Indiana Pacers matches are played every Tues day night in Goa , straight after the hippo races. Come naked.

Q: Can I wear high heels in India? (UK)
A: You’re a British politician, right?

Q: Are there supermarkets in Bangalore, and is milk available all year round? (Germany)
A: No, we are a peaceful civilization of vegan hunter/gatherers. Milk is illegal.

Q : Please send a list of all doctors in India who can dispense rattlesnake serum. (USA)
A: Rattlesnakes live in A-meri-ca which is where YOU come from. All Indian snakes are perfectly harmless, can be safely handled and make good pets.

Q: Do you have perfume in India? (France)
A: No, WE don’t stink in India.

Q: I have developed a new product that is the fountain of youth. Can you tell me where I can sell it in India? (USA)
A: Anywhere significant numbers of Americans gather.

Q: Do you celebrate Christmas in India? (France)
A: Only at Christmas.

Q: Will I be able to speak English most places I go? (USA)
A: Yes, but you will have to learn it first

Q: Can I see Taj Mahal anytime? (Italy)
A: As long as you are not blind, you can see it anytime day and night.

Q: Do you have Toilet paper? (USA)
A: No, we use sand paper. (We have different grades)

>Updating you on my life.. 65 things about me..


Thank you Guria for tagging me.. :):)
Something here are known by anyone who know me personally… revealing secrets.. God help me..:P
   1. Graduated high school.
   2. Kissed someone.
   3. Smoked a cigarette. (10th standard holidays :D)
   4. Got so drunk you passed out. (Passed out totally..; P, everyone tries, recently in Paris)
   5. Rode every ride at an amusement park.
   6. Collected something stupid.
   7. Gone to a rock concert.
   8. Helped someone.
   9. Gone fishing. 
  10. Watched four movies in one night.
  11. Lied to someone.
  12. Snorted cocaine.
  13. Smoked weed.

  14. Failed a subject. (Of course duh?? Who wouldn’t have?)
  15. Been in a car accident.
  16. Been in a tornado. 
  17. Watched someone die. (I hope I never do)
  18. Been to a funeral.
  19. Burned yourself. (Many times!!)
  20. Run a marathon.
  21. Cried yourself to sleep.
  22. Spent over 10,000 bucks in one day.
  23. Flown on an airplane.
  24. Cheated on someone.
  25. Been cheated on.
  26. Written a 10 page letter. (I’ve written a 5 page letter)
  27. Gone skiing.
  28. Been sailing. 
  29. Cut yourself.
  30. Had a best friend. (Still have one.. Love you pavitra)
  31. Lost someone you loved.
  32. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do.
  33. Stolen a book from the library. (I dint do it literally, I just forgot to give it back).
  34. Gone to a different country. (I am in a different country now
LL… But nothing like India).
  35. Watched the Harry Potter movies.(Zillion times)
  37. Fired a gun.
  38. Gambled in a casino. (Never seen one too)
  39. Been in a school play.
  40. Been fired from a job. (Not yet
  41. Taken a lie detector test. 
  42. Swam with dolphins.
  43. Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
  44. Written poetry.
  45. Read more than 20 books a year. (Studying in IIPM did pay of atleast like this)
  46. Gone to Europe. (LOVELY PLACE…)
  47. Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
  48. Used a colouring book over age 12. (Still use it with my cuz pooja.)
  49. Had a surgery.
  50. Had stitches. (Fractured my hand when I was 11).
  51. Taken a Taxi. (Everyday now)
  52. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once.
  53. Been in a fist fight.
  54. Suffered any form of abuse.
  55. Had a pet. (a dog, Raja… but he died immediately after my grandpa passed away).
  56. Petted a wild animal.
  57. Had your own credit card & bought something with it. (Will never use one).
  58. Dyed your hair.
  59. Got a tattoo.
  60. Had something pierced. (EARS :D)
  61. Got straight A’s.
  62. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS.
  63. Taken pictures with a webcam.
  64. Lost something expensive. (I am so forgetful.. Lose a lot)
  65. Gone to sleep with music on.

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>This post is an entry for a contest in Blogadda called MY FIRST CRUSH. This contest was an initiative by BLOGADDA and Pringoo

Time 7.30AM

School re-opened. New class. 7th std. 13 years old. Something told me I was going to be different this year.

I was walking on the school cycle stand to leave my cycle, awaiting my cousin’s first day in my school. He was joining the 8th std. My father had instructed me to help him out around the school for the first few days. I told myself,” Why the hell should I wait for him? Isn’t he bigger than me?” *SIGH*

 Time 7.45AM
Still waiting for him. Someone was peddling the cycle, to the stand and stopped right besides to me. Who is this boy? He is sooo cute. Tall, lean,well built  Whats wrong with me? My hands are shivering. He looked at me with those beautiful eyes and smiled. Butterflies fluttering in my stomach atleast a thousand of them. (Still feel them sometimes). He said something which I do not remember till day. He smiled again and ran to the assembly hall. I melted then and there. Finally my cousin arrived. I did not want to move from that place yet school was just getting started.

Time 8.00AM
Took my cousin to his class, after which I went to my class. Kept my bag in my class and ran down to the assembly hall. My eyes searched for his eyes, his smile. But he was nowhere to be seen. *SIGH*

Time 12.00PM
The first four classes went in a jiffy. Too much work even on the first day of school. Went to check on my brother during my lunch hour. Of all the person, whom should I see when I entered that class, 8 B. HIM. He was standing with my brother and with a bunch of other guys.  My brother saw me, called me in and introduced me to them. My brother said, his name was Prabhu. Yeah, The same Prabhu who was completely invisible to me all these years in the same school. Skipping my heartbeat, I asked him in thamizh,” Neenga intha schoola evulo nalla irukinga?” ( How long have you been in this school). He said, ” For the past two years. I have seen you many times with your classmates. Havent you seen me?” I replied, “NO.” He was so embarrassed. ” I am mostly in the school grounds.. Hardly come to class.” Then it struck me, Prabhu was a champion in sports. He was the captain for the school basketball team. He played many sports and won many championship awards. Then I said, ” Oh Prabhu, I am a big fan of yours. You play the best basketball I have ever known.” He smiled again, ” Thanks”. I melted again.
My brother, ” You better go before class starts.” I stared at him with so much envy that he turned his face to me and left with Prabhu and gang.

Time 2.30PM

I was the talk of the town by then.. First girl in class to have a crush on a senior. OKAY. I told a few girls in class. Then News spread like fire. Everybody in class wanted to know how it happened. I was already being teased with him.All this happened on the first day of school. Imagine, how I studied that year… ;P

School was over for the day, yet I did not want to go home. Waited near my cycle to see if Prabhu would come to take his cycle.

Time 3.00PM
Still no Prabhu. I guess he would be in practice. My champion.

Time 3.15PM
Prabhu came with the other guys. I was still near my cycle. He asked in thamizh,” Innum nee vettuku pola?” ( Why haven’t you gone home yet?) I said I was waiting for my brother and asked if he had seen him. Prabhu said,” He had gone home already(which I knew, BTW). Okay, then I have to go. I will see you tomo. See ya..bye..”

Both of us, took our cycles together and peddled away to the gate. We went in the opposite direction. Yet my heart went behind him. I looked back to see whether he was still there, but he was gone already.

Time 3.30PM
Reached home. Ate lunch. Still thinking about him. Smiling to myself. That was the first time, I wrote a boy’s name in my diary with a heart next to it. I still have that piece of paper as a memory of my first CRUSH. Prabhu, was and will always remain in my heart forever as my first crush.

Later, we became good friends since he became my brother’s best buddy but I never had the guts to tell my crush on him. But , I knew, that he knew that I liked him. He left school after two years.
I still think about him sometimes. I hope to tell him one day, that I had my first crush on him.

I thank BLOGADDA to make me walk through the memory lane again. Taking me back to my school days where life was always beautiful

You can visit my other post on Prabhu at this link